Real Time Glow Up Space

June 6th 2025 was the WORST day of my life, the day one of my two biggest fears became a reality... The day I lost my Mother. It's been about 3 and a half months now and I won't lie, the waves of shock and devastation still hit hard and in the most random of times. However, I'm learning to cope with each wave and to use them to push me towards being a better woman, mother, daughter, sister, and friend. It wasn't long after we lost Mom that I realized there was a void within the family that would have critically negative effects on the future of everyone involved if we didn't figure out how to fill the void. She was an amazing woman who handled SO many different aspects of the family that it is absolutely IMPOSSIBLE for another human to do what she was.

So now alongside with my original Glow Up journey where the intent and end goal was to take myself from my personal Fat Girl Rock Bottom and make a successful future where Zabrina is guarenteed to live comfortably I'm learning to navigate a good portion of tasks that my Mother was spearheading in an attempt to keep the legacy she was building progressing as she intended. Being that my parents are the primary caregivers for my 2 oldest nieces Ziva and Layna I took on the extra responsibility of trying to instill in them the same set of core values and responsibilities that I have been trying to instill in Zabrina. And let me tell you it has been a JOURNEY.

I haven't been the best at being consistent on here, and to be honest I really only blog for my future self to be able to reflect on where I was when I get where I'm going. But if I can inspire or motivate just one other human along the way, it's a bonus because I can't possibly be the ONLY person who has faced and been defeated by such trivial battles. So this time I'm doing it a little different. I'm not going to promise to keep to a schedule. I'm not going to try to keep up with a minimum word count or any other blog related goals... I'm just going to be real with whoever takes the time to read this, and in the free time (HA!) that I have available to dedicate to writing. I'm not going to plan content, the planning will come for the OFFICIAL Glow Up Guide (coming soon) and for content for my motivational Glow Up Vibery Insta and TikTok (if you're not following GO DO IT NOW! LOL)

THIS will be my decompressing space. A place to jot down all the current thoughts, feelings, triumphs, victories and failures. A place to allow the Glow Up Guide to be born, naturally and uncut. A place for the Glow Up Gang to watch the process in action.

Please understand that this is not your typical "make a to do list and get it done" kind of situation. I have NO solid plan and I'm progressing as I go. Some days are more successful than others and every day is a shit show. And THATS the part that I feel needs to be talked about more, to help other people understand that EVEN AT YOUR LOWEST... YOU ARE NOT ALONE.